Determination

Why I am I so scared?

For my birthday, I got a new camera. The Nikon D7000. I haven't had a whole lot of time to practice with it. Last weekend my friend Eve came over, and I wanted to have a shoot with her. The lighting was rather atrocious. I didn't take the time to get out my reflector. It was cold. Then it was hot. I was tired. Eve was great, I just was disappointed in myself.

There are so many things on this new camera that I can't figure out how to do. I'm discouraged. I'm afraid that I won't be able to figure it. I'm afraid I'm a failure as a photographer. I feel like everyone's denying me. I'm not worth what I charge. I'm only 16. I'm not good enough.

But.

I refuse to give up. I will be persistent. There are some people who do value my work. I'm doing this my way. I refuse to give up. I will practice until I know my camera inside and out like I did my old one. I will be as fun, charming, and fantastic as I can be and win people over with the experience of my photography. I'm all smiles, but I'm real. I'm not letting this obstacle stop me. I may feel like I'm back at the ground floor, but I'm at a whole new better building. I refuse to give up. I will conquer this and be the photographer that I want to be. I refuse to give up.

And with that....

I'm going to go practice.